Fall

On grainy video
I memorized the movement of your hands
playing that same beat
over and over
nodding along to all the things
you didn't want

And another fall has settled its
cold hands around me-
I know you're gone

I know you're gone
because your hands aren't
brushing my hair
as I fall asleep

I'm not greeted by warm light
soft music
all the signs of life
when I get home

your clothes aren't hanging next
to mine in a
messy, stuffed closet

the dishes wait for me
and me alone to wash them

our inside jokes
fall on deaf ears

I fall asleep
and
wake up
in silence.